Worries

Hello Blogs ville,

How is it going? Stole the title of this post from Linda Ikeji's Blog.
Like every other being I have my worries and I am gonna let them off my chest, I feel it helps and then I'll turn them around the way I want it to be, More like speak good into the situation, This should be a very nice exercise for me.

I am very worried about my life in general. Some days I wake up with the feeling that I can do everything and the sky is the limit, Other days I feel like a bum. I feel like I am a failure some days, I really can't say why, I' stopped masters after the 1st semester and I've been trying to focus on writing my professional exams and I still haven't done that. I ask my self if I would still feel like that after I have accomplished these goals or my mind will find something else to beat me up about ?

I am also very worried about the fact that I am great at coming up with ideas but never finish up the things I started, OK that's exaggerating , but after the 1st rush and thrill of it all, It takes a lot mentally for me to sit and continue with whatever it is I'm doing. So far so good, I'm on a project and I'm hell bent on seeing it to where I imagined and beyond. Abba God I know you are reading this, You are all I have ................


I am worried about my relationship with Seth. I can be a very confused being, I have a temper and I pray God gives me Patience. Recently I almost threw everything away. I know he is not a perfect person and I realise I need to learn to chill out and be a bit more supportive. Its hard some days I tell you. Seth and I are in a long distance relationship, We get to see from time to time . I love him, heaven knows I do, But some days, My mind tends to wonder. Not on other men but on life, Our Future together.

He makes me very excited and happy, I feel like a little girl when I'm around him, I get that feeling that I can go anywhere and stay anywhere with him. He's adventurous when it comes to some things, I feel like we make up for the other persons weakness. Like 2 pea's in a pod. A part of me is a peace with him, the other part of me that sees and thinks about all the negative in the world sees differently. Its a struggle within me some days. He loves me I know, but he's hard headed and I'm stubborn. A combination like that you can't beat. I've heard this " Can do come together except they agree" I am going to have to find a way to deal with my temper and mouth. Yes my mouth!!!

I think and imagine the very best of things to the worst of things, I really don't understand why I do that. I Imagine the happiest things every to the very worst. I can see someone dying in my head. I thank God I know him, Thinking about it now, that's how some people do crazy things.


I am worried about getting married and marriage in it self. Some days i feel this pressure that makes me feel like I should be married , I am happy that the voice of reason in my head comes on and reminds me of what marriage is all about. I am still worried anyways lol.


That wasn't so bad afterall,
Ciao
xxxxx