Rant..........

1st of all I'm Pissed of at my so called cousin. This Big heart of mine will so so not put me in trouble. Abba father you see my heart ohhhhhhhhhhh.

I'm sure you are all wondering what I'm ranting about, Well Thieves broke into my house,Yeah in Obodo Oyinbo. I've Lived in my house for 9 yrs, 9 yrs I repeat, Ive left the key at the door and slept off several times and nothing I repeat Nothing has ever happened. So the annoying part about the whole thing was the broke in and stole my cousins laptop which happen to be on my bed and the 1st thing you see when u break in thru the window and move the head board of the bed. My cousin now has the nerve to ask me to explain to her how the house was robbed and it was only her laptop that was taken, E ma gba mi ohhhhhhhhh, Olorun ma je ki se ore daran,( People pls help me , may I not help and cause trouble for myself in the process). In short I will deal with her rubbish later. In short who knows if it isnt her that carried bad luck to the place self. This has never happened, I feel so bad it was her stuff and with her whining , I'm like why didn't they take any of my belongings and just leave hers so i can have freaking peace of mind. Its like i have become a suspect in my own home, Can u Imagine? On Top Laptop. Hmmm it is well, Pls God Miracle I want her out of the house as soon as possible, Pls make a way quick. I don't like this kinda rubbish.


2). My grandad called my mum and wants to know when I will be bringing Mr Right home so we can wrap the whole thing up. Pls can somborri help me ask him if I'm supposed to carry any random person and marry abi which kain thing be this ? PRINCE CHARMING , PRINCE CHARMING HAVE YOU SEEN WHAT YOU HAVE CAUSED? YOU BERRA COME OUT OHHH, YOUR GRAN FATHER -IN-LAW IS LOOKING FOR YOU!!!!

3). Although this is a rant, God has been faithful to me . I am thankful..........


4). I met the sweetest guy ever and I feel so bad I don't wanna date him. In short i cannot begin to explain the reasons out here. Shared the matter with too many people, no about to let the James Bonds I call friends, Fish me out......

5). I'm pissed at the yeye detective that came to my house for the crime scene, In short where is the betta NYPD. when u need them. Lol . I'm Just upset. They asked me wat I was doing with her laptop? Hello we live in the same house, Don't people need to go on the internet, and besides my laptop crashed and I took it to work for repairs.

I'm off to calm down, Will be back later........

Dear God

My Heavenly Father,


Ive been meaning to write you this letter for a long time, Words sometimes fail me and I feel like am so lost and down deep at the bottom of the pit. Some days I have so much faith in you and it keeps me going and believing that is too shall pass. I have this inner strength in me that tells me this storm is over and that is hasn't consumed me. I believe lord, I believe.

I wake up most days with gratitude in my heart cos I know you have done it. But sometimes daddy, the devil brings fear, I overthrow this hold through praise and worship and prayers, or sometimes just by simply quoting your words to myself. Father when they said your words are like sweet melody they werent lying. They calm me down and give me the assurance that you are still the unchangeable changer , The God of Possibilities.

Abba God, This matter weighs me down, Father as you come thru for Samson, One more time, father lord do it again for me. I know I have made too many promises in the past , father lord , look not on that but on your loving kindness and tender mercies and have mercy upon me your daughter. FATHER LORD I NEED YOUR MERCY!!! Pls lord remember me for Good as you remembered Nehemiah in the bible, All the good things I have done thru your grace and father have mercy on me. Pull me from his pit I'm falling into, Let shame disgrace, sorrow and weeping never know my name. GOD OF SUDDENLY ARISE TO MY CAUSE, You own the earth and all that is in , show the world you are my God, as you answered Elijah by fire, Lord answer me speedily, incline to my requests speedily, hear and grant my requests from the throne of Zion by fire.


Thank you lord. You are Indeed an Awesome God!!!

Love Your Daughter

Lasgidi..........

Neigbourhoods

Hey people,

I seem to have gotten over my wonderful ordeal or buried it. Whatever I have peace for now. So this week for some strange reason Ive had friends either married or about to get hitched moving houses or looking for in Nigeria. So we start talking about different neighbourhood's and wow boy ohh boy did it become very scary to me.

See growing up i lived in Surulere. Always been a lere girl, lol. Now when people mention that they are moving to certain areas it freaks me out E.G Iyana Iba, Sango Ota, Ketu, Ifo, Okoko. I'm not trying to bring down some areas or anything but it is weird when I try to imagine myself living in those areas. 1st of all I don't even have the faintest idea on how to get there, then moving there ? Lord ............

So after talking to my friends, I call up another friend, A guy and I tell him how the conversation scared the shit outta me,( Before you wonder why? I want to move back to Nigeria one of these days). Lets call my Friend Edi. So Edi says hmmm tell me which areas can you live in, Im like ok Surulere, Ikeja, Akoka, Yaba( Depends on the area), Ebute metta(hmmmm might not !), Festac, Mile 2 extension, Isolo, Okota, Gbagada (Bariga is so not included), Apapa(Hmmm dunno, its always flooded) and yes you know the other sides of lagos where everyone wants to live, Lekki, Vi etc But didnt mention those 1st, Being realistic you know........... So he says ohh madam if your hubby says you are living in Iyana Iba you betta go and find the best route there cos with marriage all your fantasies jump out the window. Im like damnnnnnnnnnnn. Abeg Thank God I'm not in that situation, cos nah cry ohhhhhhhhhhhh. God you see my heart desires, Please have mercy on me .....

From the Sun Shines outta my Ass to.......

I guess you are all wondering what my title is about. Well I will do the honours of telling. I broke up with Seth yesterday,It's been an on going storm and tried as much as possible for it to me a civil break up , but guess the dude had to tell me all the things he knew was wrong with me and that was one of them. THE SUN SHINES OUTTA YOUR ASS AND DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU DIFFERENTLY.
Cool I'm not mad at this , Its all good. So if I was so bad, why does he send me an email today apologising and asking me to BRING BACK THE SUNSHINE INTO HIS LIFE. Now I am worried, because I am confused as to where to get this sunshine from, Is it the one from my ASS?

Thinking about it over and over again, I agree I have a temper, but what kills me now is knowing he had no appreciation what so ever for anything and everything i did. I don't understand how some people can be so poor in their mind. Seriously, How can a grown man who thinks and believes he can lead a home utter such rubbish to me. How does he expect any woman at all to submit to him? Why do some men think just because they have balls BTW their thighs it gives them the right to dominate any woman and treat any thing she does as irrelevant? And one woman will wake up tomorrow and marry such and believe she has found a man. It is such a shame...............

With this experience, Ive come to Thank God, Because Ive come to realise that even when I thot he wasn't hearing me , He was indeed there every step of the way. I cant believe this idiot made me think i had all the issues. Thank God!!! Some men should be taken up to the northen part of Nigeria and Flogged till the Devil that has taken hold of them leaves them. This is why alot of women aren't nice to men at all. I can totally see where they are coming from. What the point of believing in a man, hoping and praying and giving it all uve got when he cant even see past his nose................

Breathe Gentle.....................

The Lyrics of this song Speak to me right now..................

Breathe Gentle by Tiziano Ferro.

I want to give you all of me -
the underneathWant you to show me imperfection is actually love
I thought, cursed - I was cursed -destined to be lonely
A circle in a world of squareswhere nobody knows me
So with every footstep I must
follow the kissing moments
I thought were impossible
Breathe gentle, Be gentle
Don't leave me behind
cause love goes faster
Breathe gentle, Be gentle
Never let me go when love goes faster
I will be gentle
See, photographs have only two dimensions
But love defies all logic in a picture
Above all that is physical, I'm falling
Falling uncontrollably - it terrifies me
So if my compass, it fails me
And I feel I'm walking blind
Don't say goodbye
Don't let me hide
Oh please don't let me spiral
Tortured by you, oh, sweet torture!
I am a pirate - love my fortune
The walls have fallen now
The key is yours to turn - I'm breathing
Breathe gentle, Be gentle...
Every time I run somehow love is faster
Without your loneliness is everlasting
I still feel you
But I hear you - loudlyScreaming - "please wait for me"Cause I don't want to hurt you
And I don't want to loose this love this time.
Se cerco lo vedol'
amore va veloce e tu stai indietro
Se cerchi mi vedi Il bene più segreto
sfugge all'uomo che non guarda avanti mai

Without A Care In The World

Howdy People.

It is a beautiful day and right now I want to be 5 again, I want to let my hair down and not be bothered by ANYTHING. I'll be like one of the Disney characters, live a fairy tale life and wait for prince charming to find me and after that we will live Happily Ever After. Yes !!!! or better still I'll modernise mine a bit and picture me travelling the world and seeing diff places , Cambodia, china , Chile Maui, Thailand, Brazil, Argentina, ohhhhhhhhhh lord, Just quit my job and go anywhere I want to go, Things would appear as I want them, Bills taken care off, no headache on how to make more money, just enjoying the view from the top of a hill, or mountain, skiiinggggggggggggggggggg hmmmmmmmmmm.

OK snap back to reality, I am at work right now, my head is all over the place, I lost my bank card, Ive cancelled it but I need to go to their branch to get a temporary one, I hate going to bank and am an accountant, Pls can someone tell me how that plays out? Well I have to clean my house this weekend, I have visitors and they have Kids, So u can imagine what has gone down.
I'm trying to focus on God and my goals and that has been so hard. Like I said my head is everywhere. My cousins have been sleeping in my room . I cant pray and have my alone time with God when their are people in my room, I dunno it's just me, heaven knows what I will do when I become part of another?


Lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, Why cant I just use my head to think about the prince, how he will find me and we will live happily ever after? Or better still my tandem jump, mountain hike, beach runsssssssssss , adventure adventure all the way. At least if prince no dey adventure dey guranteed?

Worries

Hello Blogs ville,

How is it going? Stole the title of this post from Linda Ikeji's Blog.
Like every other being I have my worries and I am gonna let them off my chest, I feel it helps and then I'll turn them around the way I want it to be, More like speak good into the situation, This should be a very nice exercise for me.

I am very worried about my life in general. Some days I wake up with the feeling that I can do everything and the sky is the limit, Other days I feel like a bum. I feel like I am a failure some days, I really can't say why, I' stopped masters after the 1st semester and I've been trying to focus on writing my professional exams and I still haven't done that. I ask my self if I would still feel like that after I have accomplished these goals or my mind will find something else to beat me up about ?

I am also very worried about the fact that I am great at coming up with ideas but never finish up the things I started, OK that's exaggerating , but after the 1st rush and thrill of it all, It takes a lot mentally for me to sit and continue with whatever it is I'm doing. So far so good, I'm on a project and I'm hell bent on seeing it to where I imagined and beyond. Abba God I know you are reading this, You are all I have ................


I am worried about my relationship with Seth. I can be a very confused being, I have a temper and I pray God gives me Patience. Recently I almost threw everything away. I know he is not a perfect person and I realise I need to learn to chill out and be a bit more supportive. Its hard some days I tell you. Seth and I are in a long distance relationship, We get to see from time to time . I love him, heaven knows I do, But some days, My mind tends to wonder. Not on other men but on life, Our Future together.

He makes me very excited and happy, I feel like a little girl when I'm around him, I get that feeling that I can go anywhere and stay anywhere with him. He's adventurous when it comes to some things, I feel like we make up for the other persons weakness. Like 2 pea's in a pod. A part of me is a peace with him, the other part of me that sees and thinks about all the negative in the world sees differently. Its a struggle within me some days. He loves me I know, but he's hard headed and I'm stubborn. A combination like that you can't beat. I've heard this " Can do come together except they agree" I am going to have to find a way to deal with my temper and mouth. Yes my mouth!!!

I think and imagine the very best of things to the worst of things, I really don't understand why I do that. I Imagine the happiest things every to the very worst. I can see someone dying in my head. I thank God I know him, Thinking about it now, that's how some people do crazy things.


I am worried about getting married and marriage in it self. Some days i feel this pressure that makes me feel like I should be married , I am happy that the voice of reason in my head comes on and reminds me of what marriage is all about. I am still worried anyways lol.


That wasn't so bad afterall,
Ciao
xxxxx